Stuck in my in-between

I'm impatient;
Impatient from all these feelings

I'm immobile;
Immobile i can't feel a thing

And i don't even want to know the why
I just only care about you now

So see me
Please hear me
Because if you go
I realize I'll be no more

Time's meant to heal all of our wounds
But you're too deep , you're apart of me

I'm anxious;
Anxious its pins and needles all over me

I'm empty
Empty without you i'm just half a piece

So reach for me
Please feel for me
Because your absence is my end
I think i can hear the fat lady sing

                                       *

Illusions

Engrave on veins deep rooted in the soul

Mystify the mind and burden it with holes

The confusion that lurks 

in the cracks formed in the beaten road

A definite path of destruction and freedom

Illusion made to change you and break you

Build you and shame you

In case you find exactly want you're seeking

Try not to look beyond 

For the madness might sip in 

Consume and overwhelm

Remember you've been warned 

You've been shown 

So be careful what you wish for

Hurt heals in time

:-)

OUTSIDERS

Feel the light air brush against your face

Raising the hairs on the back of your neck

So how exactly do you want to expound

The bruises running from your neck to feet

Is fighting your inner torn wars 

Different from the outside perfect battles

So you thought climbing on top of it all it'd seize 

You end up falling back into the shadows

Is writing your secret thoughts on a blank page 

Similar to dancing with the demons so enraged 

Do you really not know your name

if so why you looking frightened when they echo

YOU ARE THE WORST

My frame of reference of love has always come from literature

In my brooding youth Bronte encapsulated my view point thusly

The trouble is not that I’m single and likely to stay single

But that I am lonely and likely to stay lonely.

But as I grew up, my darkening view was more Shakespeare

Love is merely a madness and I tell you

Deserves as well a dark house and a whip as mad men do

But now,

Now, since you;

To my abject horror, my view on love can be better described by Nicholas Sparks in the 

NOTEBOOK

It’s not easy, it’s hard

You have to work at it

But if you are worth it

It is tremendously life altering

I’m saying this out loud

In front of this crowd, the sky and all of the Heavens to witness

Because I want you, I want all of you

I love you

Forever

(Or something like that.)

WINDOW TO THE SOUL

In my opinion ART is the window to the soul, 

A window to the imagination

When the key is turned and the room opened

Ideas, feelings and expression come flooding in

Whether admired, loved, inspired or hated, dreaded and fear

It does it's purpose

SPARKS and IGNITES an emotion in you

WELCOME TO THE GALLERY

How to Act Like Ethan Hunt from Mission Impossible 1, 2, 3, and 4

When you hear or simply see anything about mission impossible immediately you are thrown into a world of intrigue, adventure action and top secret spies who have to save the world from destruction.

But what if i told you what you see and often fantasize about can actually be achieved and experienced in reality. It's very easy all you have to do is follow my instructions or dare I say: 'Your mission Agent, if you chose to accept it is detailed below'

STEPS

1:  Agent, for this STEP to be successful you must have a 'can do' attitude because no international spy or hero in an action movie is a downer or pessimist .Your ready for anything attitude should reflect in all you do. ( I don't mean smiling at everything or acting like an eager bunny, eager to please anyone which will make most people around you uncomfortable or irritated and simply make you get used as a doormat) What i mean is CONFIDENCE. It should ooze out of of you as you walk in or leave a room. 

Do all you can to be charismatic which will essentially draw all the men and women to you which gives you the upper hand to manipulate a situation to your advantage.This may require you to change your wardrobe if your a guy get a suit (PROPERLY FITTING-TAILORED to your shape) or a lady get a dress - flattering to your shape and features.( FACE, SMILE, LIPS, HEIGHT)

2: Agent, the next step is crucial which is mastering and understanding your mission. Knowing what you want to achieve. Even if it is to get a promotion, win over the guy, rescue the damsel or save the world from domination you must first identify what it is you want to achieve.When that is all set aside then you're ready for action.


3: Identify the obstacle or evil villain in your way to a successful mission. It could literally be an evil villain depending on your lifestyle ;-) or a hostile colleague, boss or you. (Your fear can act as your the worst nemesis which can cripple you in a flash) so knowing your weakness and finding a way to outsmart and conquer the obstacle can assist you.Recon can be done to ensure the progress of this or simple trial runs to see if you are moving in a positive direction.


4: Last but not least Agent, the conclusion of your mission is crucial because you will want to leave the viewers wanting more, the villain defeated, the damsel saved and you walking out looking like a hero and making the whole mission feel effortless.Break out the gadgets, beautiful women, fast cars and adrenaline because its crunch time.No matter the cost complete the mission because you are aware of the stakes if you aren't successful.

TIPS : 

USE YOUR STRENGTHS. Everybody has them, even the quietest shy person in the room who looks like they have no goal in life has a strength. His could be that he makes people feel comfortable around him or easily underestimate him so he can easily obtain information just by siting there and has the element of surprise on his side.

 
FITNESS. You need to be strong and fit. This doesn't necessarily entail for the body but also for the mind. When you have worked up the muscles in your brain and body you will start feeling self aware and capable. 

ACT LIKE A SPY. You should be able to master the art of deception like Ethan. This entails paying attention to your surroundings and people in the vicinity. It may just be you and your mission but a lot can go wrong if you aren't prepared.

WARNINGS

If any circumstance your mission is derailed or compromised in any way you must always remember that you are 'Ethan Hunt' so you always have a contingency plan what i refer to as Plan Z. This can come in all shapes and forms such as friends or family assisting you. No matter the difference in help you must never go on a plan alone. Even Ethan had assistance from his team for his missions to be a success