INTOLERABLE TRUTH

We pretend that we know how to fix it
Broken bent all destroyed is our image
but we won't give up, just stay in line
Hoping, watching and praying for something
from thin still air will a miracle appear
and try be our salvation




tell me how do i begin to forget you
wipe all your existence right out of my memory
when you keep coming back and i let you
love me, hold me and keep me
until you leave again

i'm caught in the storm
and all its thunder
i'm caught in this rain
its drops take me under
i'm caught in the rush that hides this pain
praying my tears will let you remain
i'm ready to change but it's coming down
but i feel so alive, so open and free

won't you just let me go, just walk away
put one foot right in front of the other
if you love someone, you never let them stay
or so they say and start to claim
i feel caught in this storm and trapped in its rays

will you let me wash away
till there's no more yesterday
for you to take so you may finally find a way
to ease our ache

Planning Ahead

I always resisted letting LOVE
Into my heart and creeping into my mind
I refused to jump into that fountain of illusions,
Heartbreak, misguided lovers and dreams
Little did I know you were lurking, watching and ploting
As I declared my foolish endevours
and successes out loud
But then you breezed in
You saw me
You wanted me
Want changed into demand turned into obsession
Possession and misplaced feelings and thoughts
At no cost did you always get what you wanted
I proved a challenge and a foreseeable trophy
You took, destroyed and changed








Now time has moved on
I'm still the same but i couldn't say the same for you
As I walk away, I remember how you thought you won
You forgot and showed me a way out through weakness
So don't look so surprised when the lights blind you
As the story of your life and expectations is clear for all to see





I guess by now you must have realised that
In this fairy tale I'm the knight and there isn't a damsel on board
Try your luck else where because the dragons in the den are my family
And the war is always declared as a precaution
So you know I may not see it coming, be aware and naive sometimes
But I'm always prepared
Like an arch angel flying in the sky i was made for this

PBNC

Undeniable Confusion and Precision

So much love
Or is it too much
Can't get enough
What's a name
or rather what's in it
It can define or destroy
Obliviate and exterminate
We all seem to be passing
In and through life
As though we're waiting in transition
In a waiting room of a hospital or airport







You're like the the chains
Connected to this sinking ship
I know what I said and promised
All those nights when we were aligned
But contrary to what you might grasp
This anchor unchained itself from me
So you may have to let it go
I'm not afraid just careful
And this may be a good thing
I won't poison or contaminate you
Trust me no one ever survives
When I''m through




Listening to Anklebiters on my phone
It really may have a point
Too in love with myself to care
Or reflect about how you feel
I guess the colors all around
Seem to blind worse then love
I'm too intoxicated to mind
Life has to lived and enjoyed
Not tolerated with hollow and empty longings

Seasons and Distance changed us for the best
At least that's how I see it as I dangle of the edge
Of this uneven crane reconstructing my existence
I pray you see the sense that love comes and sadness goes
So I bid you FAREWELL










PBNC

Come hither

Deception and disillusion
Is ultimately contagious
Trust me I know
I felt it, absorbed it
Welcomed it with the softest of touches
As it drew into my arms
Soon realizing that inevitable

Darkness and misery awaited me
I still stood unmoved, and more determined
Wanting, waiting and hoping
Why you may ask me
A straight answer you expect to receive
But Alas that you're in for the long haul

The siren and mythical echo
still rings around my milieu
There used to be a presence in this place
Now a photograph with no face
Replaces and shadows it
The powerful graving
Like a need ground from the depth
Of the Earth's core itself
Compelling, neigh demanding
To be heard

I feel i'm over all the fluttering
Yearnings as time passes
Feeling strong and independent I push on
All the baggage off my shoulders
But with just once look and smell
I'm drawn into this sick jest
Ready for ridicule
Like a simple single leaf in the midst of a Tornado
I'm weak, defenseless a nothing
Yet I feel there's always hope
You will leave soon
This emotion and feeling will disappear
As swift and mysteriously as it sprung up

So patience and cunning is both 

My  new and old wisest friends

Clocks ticking, Hands moving

Times most definitely almost up

A glimpse of a shiver running through you

Alerts me like the loudest sirens on earth

A wicked smile forms on my lips as I finally rise

And claim it all.

Just who are .............THEY?

They always know
they always find out
They see you
They hunt you
Even your deep darkest secrets aren't safe



The dead aren't a hindrance just a challenge
So dead men telling no tales doesn't apply



They feel a change coming
They arm themselves
We look on hoping to never get involved
They are strong
They are offended to be challenged
They expect no prisoners
Just enjoyment from the spoils of battle

They change as fast as chameleons
They're always steps and mountains ahead
They don't tolerate defeat

They want to take us all down
They believe if they can't win then no one will


I know this may sound sordid
Scary and oblivious even
Trust me, It's no joke
No dream or fairy tale
This is the stuff Nightmares are built on
They basically formed the name and images that haunt us

They crave power
They demand attention at all cost
Breaking, Crushing,Demolishing
Respect is a must
Insolence is punishable by a fate worse than death
We can't fight them off
We feel weak and insignificant

The irony is you know who I'm speaking of
Yes you
Reading this
You've seen them
Smiled and cried with them
Never really seeing their true face
We often refer to them in ways of thinking and speech
Giving them ultimate control which when received will never return
What you wonder?
Who is this monster?
Why?

Well I'll indulge you
And spin a myth turned folktale
turned dream turned imagination turned
Into reality we actually face daily
They are within,
Moving, Watching, Waiting
For their turn, their time
These evil and explainable beings

So If you really want to see them
Want to be brave and challenge them
Were few have been successful and merged victorious
Then follow my instructions
But please take head to the warnings
The signs, The wails and cries from the alarms as you approach

Your heart will beat faster
When they sense you nearer
They will be expecting you so there is no element of surprise
They won't show mercy
They will fight, Bride, cry and act to get you to give up your discovery

Who are they you ask........
They ..............
are..............
YOU.............

JUST THE REFLECTION AND TRUE NATURE OF HUMANS TURNED DEPENDING ON CIRCUMSTANCES


So now you know
Take it with you
Remember who you and keep it with you
Till the infinite future

THEY ARE US..............AND WE ARE THEM.

HANGOVER FROM LOVE

It started with you
Smiling, always looking
Constantly being there
Branded my Hero
by all close to me
It felt like you were closer
Than my own shadow
Near than my heart
Knowing my every thought
and motion just before I acted

I wonder if I should
Love or fear
Everything involving you and me
I'm not as strong as I look
Or as frightened as I act
Constantly on the run
You call it thrill, I know its danger
With Sirens blaring, guns cocking,
Hands brushing, heads spinning
Emotions just out of control
Need to breathe and slow down
Compels us as I start to truly see you

Glancing at the portrait of the vineyard
The one where we met
Walked, Laughed and fell in love
But is this really everything it claims to be
I hate the shiver I get
When I feel you approaching
Not sure if it's excitement and thrill
Or Reject and Disdain

I try to pull out
But I'm dragged back within all the drama and lies
I feel trapped, abandoned and lost from all I've seen
Why don't you let me go
How can you suffocate what you took time to nourish and grow
I to feel alive and disgustingly free
To hold my head up high and just be


But the game is on still being played
And we both intend to win
So gloves off no feelings involved
I'll ghost my true self to survive
I noticed how you get surprised
Constantly by me and the glint in you eye shines
Whether its Love or Anger reflecting back
I decided not to care
The conclusion will have one victor
And for the record I intend to remain
Undefeated till the last breathe has been drawn

LESSON LEARNT

Being hustled............I admit watching the British hit series on television made it seem so surreal and amazing at the same time but in reality you could beat the crap out of someone for wasting your time.
I think it also teaches valuable lessons in all the experiences one goes through.

I thought that being skeptical was a bad thing........well from now I'll think again.............
You know how we always hear these things happening to some one else always a friend of a friend or some relative and never you..........
What we all hate is that to be us when it's a negative, depressing and sad story

Most people are scammed because they basically want the easy way out of course......
So I know we all have big dreams and wishes but why do we always stop there..............hmmm?
Why just only dream sigh.....then brush it off like yesterday's news.

ACT and DO something to make your dreams a reality............

Love what you do

Always en-devour to make the best of whatever situation you put in................Silver Lining and all that.
Make sure it's a reflection of who you are

I often here this phrase how reality avoids and hinders a person from dreaming. There is truth in it but if you believe and want the dream bad enough reality is too but a dream and in your hands.

No moment to lose

What this insipid feeling of nothingness
It's Another week again and I'm not feeling like my cheery upbeat self....sigh



What ever happened to privacy
I guess it died with all the social media and Internet
being unleashed onto us



It's funny because 50 years back no one would willing
 give information about themselves and lives
Or the insights of their minds
Part of them anyway
(case and point)



We benefited from it yes...........but it does have its downfalls
like all good things which are eventually too good to be true
Being stalked, ideas being stolen, lack of privacy and of late
Morals go down the crapper as people take further steps
into the abyss of darkness and nothingness


Well the world now...............
I'm not saying sop using it........just use your head
plus think before you act
It worked years before for our ancestors I'm sure it will work for us to

TRY......be a champion, pioneer of sorts and an example