YOU ARE THE WORST

My frame of reference of love has always come from literature

In my brooding youth Bronte encapsulated my view point thusly

The trouble is not that I’m single and likely to stay single

But that I am lonely and likely to stay lonely.

But as I grew up, my darkening view was more Shakespeare

Love is merely a madness and I tell you

Deserves as well a dark house and a whip as mad men do

But now,

Now, since you;

To my abject horror, my view on love can be better described by Nicholas Sparks in the 

NOTEBOOK

It’s not easy, it’s hard

You have to work at it

But if you are worth it

It is tremendously life altering

I’m saying this out loud

In front of this crowd, the sky and all of the Heavens to witness

Because I want you, I want all of you

I love you

Forever

(Or something like that.)

WINDOW TO THE SOUL

In my opinion ART is the window to the soul, 

A window to the imagination

When the key is turned and the room opened

Ideas, feelings and expression come flooding in

Whether admired, loved, inspired or hated, dreaded and fear

It does it's purpose

SPARKS and IGNITES an emotion in you

WELCOME TO THE GALLERY

How to Act Like Ethan Hunt from Mission Impossible 1, 2, 3, and 4

When you hear or simply see anything about mission impossible immediately you are thrown into a world of intrigue, adventure action and top secret spies who have to save the world from destruction.

But what if i told you what you see and often fantasize about can actually be achieved and experienced in reality. It's very easy all you have to do is follow my instructions or dare I say: 'Your mission Agent, if you chose to accept it is detailed below'

STEPS

1:  Agent, for this STEP to be successful you must have a 'can do' attitude because no international spy or hero in an action movie is a downer or pessimist .Your ready for anything attitude should reflect in all you do. ( I don't mean smiling at everything or acting like an eager bunny, eager to please anyone which will make most people around you uncomfortable or irritated and simply make you get used as a doormat) What i mean is CONFIDENCE. It should ooze out of of you as you walk in or leave a room. 

Do all you can to be charismatic which will essentially draw all the men and women to you which gives you the upper hand to manipulate a situation to your advantage.This may require you to change your wardrobe if your a guy get a suit (PROPERLY FITTING-TAILORED to your shape) or a lady get a dress - flattering to your shape and features.( FACE, SMILE, LIPS, HEIGHT)

2: Agent, the next step is crucial which is mastering and understanding your mission. Knowing what you want to achieve. Even if it is to get a promotion, win over the guy, rescue the damsel or save the world from domination you must first identify what it is you want to achieve.When that is all set aside then you're ready for action.


3: Identify the obstacle or evil villain in your way to a successful mission. It could literally be an evil villain depending on your lifestyle ;-) or a hostile colleague, boss or you. (Your fear can act as your the worst nemesis which can cripple you in a flash) so knowing your weakness and finding a way to outsmart and conquer the obstacle can assist you.Recon can be done to ensure the progress of this or simple trial runs to see if you are moving in a positive direction.


4: Last but not least Agent, the conclusion of your mission is crucial because you will want to leave the viewers wanting more, the villain defeated, the damsel saved and you walking out looking like a hero and making the whole mission feel effortless.Break out the gadgets, beautiful women, fast cars and adrenaline because its crunch time.No matter the cost complete the mission because you are aware of the stakes if you aren't successful.

TIPS : 

USE YOUR STRENGTHS. Everybody has them, even the quietest shy person in the room who looks like they have no goal in life has a strength. His could be that he makes people feel comfortable around him or easily underestimate him so he can easily obtain information just by siting there and has the element of surprise on his side.

 
FITNESS. You need to be strong and fit. This doesn't necessarily entail for the body but also for the mind. When you have worked up the muscles in your brain and body you will start feeling self aware and capable. 

ACT LIKE A SPY. You should be able to master the art of deception like Ethan. This entails paying attention to your surroundings and people in the vicinity. It may just be you and your mission but a lot can go wrong if you aren't prepared.

WARNINGS

If any circumstance your mission is derailed or compromised in any way you must always remember that you are 'Ethan Hunt' so you always have a contingency plan what i refer to as Plan Z. This can come in all shapes and forms such as friends or family assisting you. No matter the difference in help you must never go on a plan alone. Even Ethan had assistance from his team for his missions to be a success

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Being the last born she always knew this day would come. It would eventually fall on her shoulders, all the shattering consuming responsibility and the world would finally have its last laugh.

Vex pressed her cold bony palm on the top of her temple while massaging it gently, hoping to subside the massive marching band sound of headaches which plagued her for the fourth time this week.

Looking back she thought, perhaps it's her intuition that always warned her from the day she was born or maybe it was her inherited skeptic mind that everything had three sides to it where place, person or situation it was always three. But at this moment, at this crucial time she figured was she opened her eyes it was all or nothing.

Darting her eyes in the smoky, poorly lit, pungently smelling excuse for a warehouse she scanned for any movement and heat signature. All while trying desperately not to draw as much attention of her presence in the room. Suddenly the hairs on the back of her neck started to rise as she started to realize she was being watched. 

It was as though she could literally feel the bull’s eye mark digging into each inch of her damp skin on her back as every gun in intelligence cooperation was pointed right at her with alarms screeching, lights flashing and sirens blaring.

‘I shouldn't have gotten out of bed in the morning’ she thought as she anxiously scoped the room for her target while trying to bury her newly found fear.

Then, she spotted him. Hiding behind one of the old wooden crates to her right north of the entrance of the warehouse.

As their gaze mate she could see the terror rampant in his eyes making her target look innocent. Well, almost innocent eyes because she knew behind those terrified eyes hid all the mischief and chaos which caused all this disarray shown in the stadium in the space of 20 hours; eminently changing her existence her she knew it.

Her target, the rabbit which was quickly losing interest in the staring match after deeming her nonthreatening, twitched its nose, turned and began to hop away from swiftly from the area. Noticing this she darted after him while shouting loudly.

 ‘STOP! Hey STOP! Don’t you dare do this to me again and leave me here. Stop hopping away!!!’ 'Wait,  Please wait. I know you can understand me. Wait!'

But unfortunately her cries were in vain as the rabbit out the exit with incredible speed. 
'Great job smarty pants. Out beaten by a bloody rabbit, I'm never gonna hear the end of this.
I should have listened and brought the tranq gun with me." she mumbled to herself as she run after her target.

                                                                       *

Back in the control center underground facility appropriately 120 miles south west of the warehouse; one of the blue squadron analytic operatives says to his colleagues while looking at the huge main wall screen ‘Wait? Is she shouting at a rabbit?’

‘I Believe that’s a bunny’ he’s colleague corrects him ‘rabbits are bigger in size. I know this i once hunted them while on a hunting trip.......’
"Really? You have hunted? and that is no bunny " he says in a disbelieving tone.
"Yes i have. Actually here are some ..........." 

Another 3rd analyst joins the conversation while cutting his colleague off and responds ‘But why is she doing that? It's not that the animal can answer her back. I doubt she's she fully alright there?’ while signalling and making crazy circles to her head.

Then one of the analysts turns away from his colleagues to the dark brooding figure in the corner of the room and asks for a second opinion said ‘Sir, Are you sure she is the one we are looking for? Because if you ask me she sounds crazy and isn't the asset’ while grinning at his own comment with his colleagues nodding in agreement.

‘Well, then it’s a good thing your opinion here doesn't count for anything’ replied an irritated deep cold harsh authoritative voice from the shadows ‘Does it Agent 1?’

Noticing a change in the atmosphere, a bead of sweat trailed down Agent 1’s face as he stood up straighter and bowed his head in apology cleared his throat and said while stammering  ‘Nnnoooo, myyy opinion is worthless as you say,  Your excellency, ………i….i….I’m  sssoooo’

‘SILENCE!’ Bellowed the shadowed figure temporarily cutting speech from Agent1's mouth as the figure moved from the corner of the room partly into the light.

‘There are many things I deem disagreeable in this world and on the top 5 of that list is apologies. I hate apologies. Do you know why Agent 1?'

Unable to answer Agent 1 nervously shakes his head indicating no as he looks around the room which had  become deadly quiet.

His fellow analysts had made a note to distance themselves from him for fear of being associated and being on their excellency's bad side and quickly busy themselves on their monitors.

'Apologies are a sign of weakness. And I despise weak things’ As the dark form emerged from the shadows  and standing in its place before the fleet in the control tower was a looming towering and frightening leader of the Cooperation Commander Xavier Minrone.

‘Your orders are simple. Look to your command prompts wired to your devices. I'm sending you team to find the target shown.
"Remember failure to complete this mission is unacceptable and is punishable by our extreme law. So go now and bring her to me. Alive!’ He stressed the second instruction to his fleet in his cold dead voice.

As he moved down to the assembly area and inspected his troops while moving through the lines of ranks of armed soldiers paraded in front of him.

‘And you have permission to use any means necessary’

This last order had his soldiers’ sneering and grinning evilly as they dispersed to do his bidding.

The Commander continued to walk quietly to the front of room towards the screen that displayed her face while tracing the gruesome scar with his right forefinger from his ear to his eyebrow as the dark feeling to repay old debts and seeking revenge consumed him.

The Appointment

You taught me most of everything
I thought i really knew the world
Seeing it glimmer through your eyes
But the most important lesson you showed me
Was to turn and ruin the mind of almost anyone
Just one touch the you decide


Was this something I wanted,
Something I needed or craved
Perhaps it wasn't  more like an uninvited guest staying permanently in your soul
I learnt to live with it
Hoping it wouldn't consume me
Afraid to move on or up
For the knowledge and wavering destruction that was sure to follow


You watched me closely
Urged me to break,
Enticed and blinded me till I was at the brink
Just waiting to fall
Into nothingness but pure hatred and evil
But as my eyes closed and i waited
Nothing happened


Minutes turned into days which turned into years
Still nothing
When I opened my eyes I realized you weren't there
anymore,
I was back, Back to my old self
What ever that was, back to me

I sit upright and turn
The door opens and you walk in with a sickly odd smile
I feel the same old creeping fear clench my heart as you move near
Because I knew with one word I would be no more
As i shook my head in disbelief
You were back here for me


Words pour our of your mouth as
You welcome me home
And awaken me from slumber
As i walk through the blue corridors
I ask 'Am I awake or in slumber?'
You turn and say 'we can't be late again the doctor awaits'
As the black door opens around me

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The World's favorite pastime

I'm guessing if you are American you would probably think hmmmmmmmm its Baseball but i'm not talking about that, we're not even in the same ball park.

It's FOOTBALL; and since the World Cup 2014 started, things have been going Haywire.

Besides the usual craziness of fans leaving work late or getting sick days to watch this momentous sport the whole season has been full of highlights.
Case and point One: The opening of the FIFA World 2014 was an utter flop lacking most of the thrill and drama  expected. Most of us were thinking is this all Brazil prepared surely not but as we waited some more Alas it still disappointed us.

Fast forwarding into the matches and how some Brazilian citizens are complaining about the poverty status in their country and how that the amount of income was used for World Cup instead of Health Care.

Zooming into the actual matches where there are actual BITTERS. I mean seriously a grown man (International Football Star Suarez)  biting his way to the Finals of the World Cup. I'll bet he didn't think through on his strategy or maybe he was still teething or trying to control his vampire urges so he went for the shoulder and not the classic neck bite.

 All in all it is still an amazing sport with Countries all betting and hoping for the best for their teams. I believe football is for everyone so if you don't really like the sport just watch it for the drama. Because in the past we have had HEAD BUTTS - Zidane (France) and now biting. And if that still does nothing for you just look at all the attractive players running around the field and before you know it you will be shuting...


OLE.OLE OLE OLE..................... :-)


Cheers.

Rays that Glimmer

We left it all unspoken

We buried it alive now its been frozen

and changed into the monster we learned to hide away from

For that It's true it learnt and grew

Building walls with sharp edges
Drawing all who knew
From the great beyond
Far away from the setting sun

Who'd have know I would care
Then carry shadows through the lands
Changing all, convicting most
To the spell with invisible string

So come home
hear that music
echoing on
until the green grass will grow
I'll be fine and never know any better
Well maybe forever
Who'd have guessed 

Stay with me

Don't leave me, Don't cry
This is our moment don't lie
Try to find a mystery
Buried n our history
Hoping to be swept away

Transcendence

Feel your heart beat to the rhythm of the thunder flashing way up high
I know it makes no sense but why do we survive all the time
I feel it crushing in
My undiscovered skin turning slowly and right before my eyes

So if i stay what now
would it all go away
If i stay would the light start glowing in your eyes
If i stay will the mountains tremble and acknowledge that you're once again alive
Or is it just time trying to tell me goodbye

I see the golden ray you left on the crooked wall where it slept
The creeping flashing of the light reflecting darkness into your heart
As we try to make it work and tumble and fight
I can clearly see the truth by glimpsing into you

Begging to fall, too late to crawl
Tell me constantly i'm pretty when i cry
Is that why you hurt me
so you can see the beauty that i hide
so can desert me

Red sky

You see the storm crushing in

Are ready to win

No more hiding in plain sight

They can detect the fear inside

It's your moment to glow 

Not just time to let them know

Cut the rope

Burn the cords

Feel my anchor weighing down

I see your ship flying high

Don't you know

Can't you see

Feel the energy come surging from within

As we rise higher to sky

I finally hear the cry

Flying Pianos

Pianos floating in the sky

Memories die inside

Reflections only show the only haunting you'll ever know 

Hear the howling from within

Then you know its time to begin

Can you fell the tremors 

Slowly sinking,

Endlessly awakening 

It's time to rise

Shield's up 

This is your last life

Hear the melody 

Like a crushing wind 

Consuming all who dare and hide

The sirens closing in 

Enemy creeps within 

It's already begun

Closed of in the middle ready to run

PONDERING

I'm aware of the damnation
A slimmer into your salvation
So can you really make this condemnation
To a cycle of arbitration


It's killing
This chilling
Amazing thrilling
Positively fulfilling
Rendered high to the ceiling
Constantly demeaning
This willing drilling feeling


Always ever green
Sometimes often mean
Almost rarely seen
Feels like a dorsal fin
Stuck on a fish trying to win
Swimming swiftly in

This force
With no remorse
Striving to get off this course
Like a jumping horse
Stronger like a native Norse

Excited with so much glee
To blind to see
It's staring at me
Was it worth the fee
They'll ask and ponder thee
And when'll it be free

You just have to wait for your moment
Away from the torment
And leave no comment

Destiny

Take me back to the night we met

all the magic and rush of adrenaline

Remember when just a smile used to calm both our hearts

And it was the world in its orbit with us floating around it

You can't pretend to show me your wicked ways

Because I taught you all that you know

Used to be the only one to set my heart ablaze

Now you think you're too complicated to care

such a puzzle an unexplainable maze

Behind all this brick and stone walls 

I feel all our happy memories are trapped 

I hanging by this thread and i feel like a fool

Just like an open target in a field of blood thirsty vultures

Sitting in a puddle of tears 

I can't reflect, i'm really drowning this time

I'd be happy if i could still remember how to move my lips

Go ahead ring all the bells and whistles

It's curtain call time and your show is far from concluding

Like the rusty old bridge between our hearts

I'll try one last time and breathe again 

How about you?

Bright Orange Cape

Okay so i realized i basically have taken ages without actually writing down something which in my book is odd. Here goes.............                   
                                                                                 *

He stood at the edge in his bright orange cape

Staring and contemplating what the next stage would be

He fancied himself a hero with a misunderstood artistic perception of life

Always trying to stand out and get respect he knew not what to do with

Never following orders and trying to live outside the borders

Seeing the easy way out made him chipper and excited

For he saw this as an opportunity for his time to rise

As the cold chilling wind passes through the mountains unto the plains

We all recall and ponder that this tale is as puzzling as the subject

That was years ago when all that was complicated is much irrelevant in existence

For the man in the funny orange cape got his final wish & seen by the masses

Fly he did and soar to the heavens as he dreamed

Leaving only that bright orange cape as a remembrance of him

Memories

Memories embrace like old mistresses

Hugging and gliding with familiarity

Real and pure vision is difficult to glimpse of

For darkness always hides and reflects it from our gaze

Again

So whatever path we choose to take

There'll be highs and lows the same

We never run from our mistakes

the harder we fall 

the harder we learn to try again

HURTFUL

I used to laugh it off
I used to look the other way
I used to save my troubles for another day

I kept my fingers crossed
I used to never take the vein
I'd pull a sunshine story in the pouring rain
The more i had to change, i just stayed the same


You don't know what you've got
Till you're missing it a lot
I had to go through it all away
I was drunk from the start
From the bottom of my heart i apologize
What i did to you was hurtful
What i'm going through is hurtful

.....Erik Hassle

Why

Why don't we smile anymore

I'm  not ok with that

Why don't we laugh anymore

I'm really not ok with that

Why don't we dance slowly

I know the hurt won't disappear and it's a fact

But as time rushes by

And the clouds seem to fly

with all the things left aside

I believe i t's were the miracles lie

or were we try to hide

Why don't we try anymore

surely we aren't afraid of that.

RIGHT?

Imagine me

There is a coming feeling I always get when looking at nature

It touches the creative and artistic side of me

so calm and strong yet so vicious and easily destroyed

Magnificent

WONDER

Woke up to a gray sky
I closed my eyes and it was fine
Making the voices fade and colors brightly burst in
You might have walked my way
Or tried to say hello today
But in my state of illusion
You were sadly nothing but fiction
so I probably smiled and waved away
Trying to make all my sorrows fade in May
The cold reality has its firm grip on me
oh its making me see


I can't even tell the forest from the trees
Don't know if its all me or just the green
Feeling hurtful and stressed inside
so confused although I try to hide
letting my head move round and round
Feeling empty and used
wondering if my path was right
if all my decisions are justified
or maybe a way to sleep at night
is this my end or beginning
i don't know, i'm way far gone

Today was no exception from the rest
huge unexpected surprises follow me
like they are in awe and are somehow drawn to me
The water fills to its brink
my head starts to explode
i'm speechless, weightless it's so effortless
And there's nothing you can do
there's nothing you can say
to make the ache and pain consuming all around me dissolve


I'm trapped in my memories of you and me
this fantasy that seems to real to me
I can't complete, this endless wrong on my own
Please won't you be the one
be my knight, fly above and slay them down
the demons and evil hiding in the dark
of my shadow
I believe you'll help me because i don't wanna drown